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Why do I do what I do?

There has recently been a big deal of questioning from inside and outside of me about why I do what I do. More specifically, why the pursuit of theology? It took me some time to begin the process of continually working this out. Here’s my current answer, as a pilgrim on the way.

If ‘theology’ is the study of God then we must get it right. Not because of ‘logy’ itself, but because of the ‘theo’ we are studying. We all have a theology. That is, we have our own belief as to what God is like, has done, currently does, and has promised to do. If the bible is the divine word of God, then it makes sense to continually shape our view of God based on his big-picture revelation in scripture.

Most would have to agree with Piper’s notion that “bad theology dishonours God and hurts people”, but further for me is R. C. Sproul’s careful belief that bad theology is sinful. I desire to love God more and more, but loving God for who He is not, I humbly believe, is a form of idolatry. This also means that I have to be very careful in my study of God, because it is God I attempt to figure out.

The bible itself, however, tells me that studying it will grow me in faith and help me to stand firm in the truth. For example, Paul mentions this in his second letter to me (am I funny yet?):

“But as for you, continue in what you have learned and become convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, and how from infancy you have known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.” – 2 Timothy 3:14-16.

Notice how especially in this one passage, Paul also commands us to spread the love to others. This is major reason why I blog. Recently I’ve been happily bombarded with training by my lead pastor and my university mentor. My biggest issue is this: why wasn’t I taught this stuff earlier!?!?

Now, I know there is a ‘time and place for everything’ as my dad often quotes from Ecclesiastes 3, but at least for me, I think God has called me (if you will) to be some sort of teacher. I believe somewhere out there on the internet is a small portion of Christians who are often all alone just like me that may appreciate my written musings, and can benefit in some way as I too benefit from other teachers.

Finally, in the words of my pastor; teaching something is the best way to truly learn it. I am constantly stunned at how much I do not know about God. That’s the most amazing part about the pursuit of a holy mind – learned mystery!

I don’t believe how I currently serve is the way everyone should – I have to be reminded daily that it is the grace of God that calls me to service in whatever way He wants, and I think He wants me to do this. Sure, there may be a day when I completely ‘change ministries’, but for now, I strive to love God with all my head, heart and hands.

“Theology is the basis for loving God and living for Christ. How can one love or serve someone about whom he or she knows very little? While it is impossible to love and serve God correctly without knowing him correctly, it is possible to understand theology without making the connection between theory and practice.” – Michael Horton.

It is a personal struggle, admittedly, to make this balance in my growth. Pray for me – I’ve really only just begun.

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